Vielen Dank, I really only shared that because I wondered if it would resonate with others here.
Another BIG thing that made me stop, at least for the foreseeable future: I was having spasms in my neck, basically on my carotid artery, every time I used. I felt like I was about to have a stroke half the time, and I also felt a little powerless to stop it.
I am really happy that you are in control of your usage. It's a scary place to be when you can't control your own life.
The very fact that you made this post and are willing to be vulnerable enough with yourself to ask these questions is a awesome. Keep examining yourself. Nobody is perfect.
Just know that people will love you and support you 100% of the way if you ever decide to stop using for a while, and it is way easier than you might think.. but you can't do it alone.
You are a very smart person. I wonder how smart the parallel universe version of yourself who never tokes is. They're probably a real force of nature. At least, that's what I wonder about myself sometimes. Truly, a highdea.
I love your mental image of our parallel selfs. No worries I have all the support I could get whatever I go for! My partner is doing a break, so I thought I try too so I am sober for a few days now actually. Sure miss it, but mostly because I relax on the couch all day because the weather is really bad, otherwise it's not too hard (for me)
Today I just wondered why and figured I'll get some inputs from a crowd i value.
Another BIG thing that made me stop, at least for the foreseeable future: I was having spasms in my neck, basically on my carotid artery, every time I used. I felt like I was about to have a stroke half the time, and I also felt a little powerless to stop it.
I am really happy that you are in control of your usage. It's a scary place to be when you can't control your own life.