This is embarrassing to post. Just say you have trouble relating to people, it’d come across better.
Devout is about dedication, not visibility. My journey has nothing to do with how I portray myself and behave in social settings. Very few of my coworkers even know I attend church and do mission work. I don’t have to wave a flag out of my ass to worship the Living God, unlike the majority of phony half-believers keeping pews warm Sunday mornings. They leave church filled with impatience and anger, and treat those less fortunate as a filth and a burden despite being commanded by God to serve THEM!
All that said, I’m not at all shocked you don’t understand. Good luck.
Nobody stated that you have to "wave a flag out of [your] ass." I merely pointed out that "devout" has a particular meaning that seems to be in conflict with the notion of being "sick" to admit that you're Christian.
In my (Roman Catholic) theology classes, and many decades of religious study, I was always taught that part of being Christian is to not be afraid of what other people think of you being a Christian. That accepting persecution for your faith is a very basic act of faith.
I merely suggest you use a word other than "devout" to describe your relationship with your faith. "Adherent" might work. But as there are many different types of Christianity, perhaps your line requires less devotion, or a different type of devotion than mine.
I'm not sure what a "journey" is, but I wish you well with your life and your interest in improving your relationship with God.
Devout is about dedication, not visibility. My journey has nothing to do with how I portray myself and behave in social settings. Very few of my coworkers even know I attend church and do mission work. I don’t have to wave a flag out of my ass to worship the Living God, unlike the majority of phony half-believers keeping pews warm Sunday mornings. They leave church filled with impatience and anger, and treat those less fortunate as a filth and a burden despite being commanded by God to serve THEM!
All that said, I’m not at all shocked you don’t understand. Good luck.