I of course don't know your specific circumstances, but nonetheless I'd like to recommend you the author's own take on their work described in a rant titled "Spare Time and Hard Work".

It's available here: https://mitxela.com/rants (unfortunately It's not possible to link directly to it so you'll need to scroll a little bit down to find it)

I personally like coming back to it from time to time, since it's inspiring in it's own way for me.