Are deathbed comments the result of some instantaneous wisening caused by the circumstances or are those words regrets that have echoed through one's life?
Odd how some pieces of info come in one's life synced with one's needs. I'm in adjacent rooms with my mom and sister and we're all on phones. Just had the thought about regretting this in a potential future and then decided to continue my phone-strolls on HN. Found this advice/regret and it maxxed on instantaneous salience.
>don't value regrets packaged as advice, especially from people who never acted on their advice
>Better advice comes from things people actually did.
What happens when it takes quite a bit more focused effort to do something like not be on "social" media than it does to idle along with the mainstream?
The line is pretty blurry to begin with, and can be a moving target making it hard to know for sure whether you are doing, not doing, or being done :)
Read once somewhere that both heaven and hell surround us and it's all about what we choose to pay attention to.
When nothing works, go for delusions (only if you're stable enough to not have them break apart the nature of your reality too much).
Also, go travel; be it on the other side of the city in a new coffee shop, in a new town for their town's day or sth, or in a new state/country/continent, travel somehow manages to shuffle the internals in one's brain enough to reboot to a different baseline; good trick for when current internal state is too meah.
Also moving through space was the default mode for our ancestors, so that I think a lot of latent despair arises out of the artificial confinements of our modern age. If you literally move your body while moving you're ready to heal.
Ok, if depressed maybe follow professional advice and all & ignore my blabbering.
Those are some heuristics I'm using for dealing with my own inner despair when it comes and they have only a sparse intersection with proper dealings of depression.
Currently working on some research proposals for studying methods to detect consciousness as relational capacity in AI systems by mapping internal representations, analyzing conversation topology, and testing how consciousness-related concepts degrade and recover across different model architectures.
In principle, using my current free time (& not only tbf) to figure out a way to fund a few positions on full-time study / audit of emergence, specifically emergence of consciousness in this case.
Setting a basis in semantics & wanting to optimize as sense gets un-sparsed.
Hmu if interested to figure out some of these together (agiornot@gmail.com)
I figure different people have different lists, and I'm one of them :)
I'd start small, whatever it takes to overcome violence, hate, superstition, pride, greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony, and sloth.
Things like that.
With all those failings left behind forever, any lingering problems after that could then be addressed with a lot more clarity.
Finally with the resulting peace dividend, I would throw a party like you could never do with all the resources in the world beforehand.
But that's just me.
Whatever you do have at your disposal, you can always start right now at least on your own self, very few people have enough resources to reach very far anyway.
Sort of scary if both.
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